Ivanhoe and Simba (... and a little bit again about JF & Me)
A loooot happened within the last few weeks, and to be honest I've found it hard to handle such high levels of
stress caused by both personal matters and also the cats. I'm back at last to write, some started to worry as I usually keep my blog up to date very often...
I lost Ivanhoe during my trip to America but waited until I got the report back from the vet hospital
to tell about that sad event .
Jean-François has been my cat-sitter since the beginning, and it was always pretty convenient: about a year ago I
wrote an article (click on the
link to access the article) about our separation, telling how we were still living together after we broke. Some are FBD (i.e. Friends Before Dating), JF and I did the opposite: we brought our
relationship to a new state after many years together. Stating that we are just friends led to a lot of confusion for people around us, and I have to acknowledge that this wording sounded
ambiguous even to both our families. Hopefully with time they've come to understand he and I act and feel more like brother and sister! Since we separated we've managed to stay close, and I'm
happy for him he has a girlfriend and he feels the same when I'm dating someone. We are proud we acted like adults and didn't lose everything we had on the road of parting ways :-)
Some say you cannot ever be friends with your ex, which is stupid, because it doesn't have to be all-or-nothing. If you have loved someone for who they truly are, instead of loving the interests
you shared and also the "projections", after you have moved on and gotten over that love story, they still remain the same person, which is why you can possibly continue to love them a different
way. I spent New Year's Eve five months ago with his family for his parents invited me over, he's still in contact with mine and visit them sometimes too.
Obviously it's always a bit weird for people we date to hear about our peculiar relationship and take it as a simple fact, but then it's only a matter of trust: you can't have a fulfilling
relationship we someone if you don't trust them!
Well I'm writing this now because regularly, many people wonder (a neighbor of mine asked that question two days ago!) whether we are still together or not! Well, we live together, but more like roomates, brother & sister, friends... Of course we will have to sell the apartment and go different ways soon and start a
new life, we are discussing that matter at the moment.
Back to talking about Ivanhoe now! Ivanhoe was under Jean-François' care while I was travelling. Of course JF isn't responsible for Ivanhoe's passing at all, something
was wrong with the kitten and I am bewildered because I still don't understand what happened. Merci C. d'avoir été là pendant mon voyage, de t'être occupé des chats, et même si les mots ont
fusé dans tous les sens à l'annonce du décès d'Ivanhoe, tu sais bien que je ne te tiens en aucun cas pour responsable de sa perte et que je te suis infiniment reconnaissante de ton dévouement...
et de tant d'autres choses. Tu m'as toujours bien réconfortée à chaque fois que je perdais un de mes bébés et quand j'avais des bobos au coeur :-) Un vrai grand frère ! :-D Bon avoue que je suis
une SUPER soeur-Pinette aussi d'abord, nanmého !
After Simba died last December I put Gabrielle to the boy ( Galak) again, hoping to have another litter with kittens alive after two months this time. Sadly our
second baby boy suddenly died at the age of six weeks too, and even though autopsy was performed quickly no reason was found to clarify the cause of death. It makes me think maybe this mating
combination wasn't meant to be: whereas Galak successfully sired many litters,
it just didn't work with Gabrielle.
Pictures of Ivanhoe & Simba
I love you forever...
Ivanhoe at one month
Simba at one month
All this pains me a lot, especially as after I lost Flint (August 25th, 2011) my dream has been to breed another white bali boy like him (and keep him as a happy neuter, not to specialize in FW
breeding). I still miss my Tounet so
very much, and now that I made up my mind to have Gabrielle spayed very soon, I kind of let go of my last foreign white cat related to Flint and the only one that could have helped me raise
another kitten like him.
Ivanhoe grew up in my bedroom for weeks and the two of us were more than close. I remember when he'd sleep in my
arms or neck, it was so very touching and sweet... I miss him terribly and I can't help but feel guilty for I couldn't save him.
In the end Mother Nature always has the last word and it's cruel when she forces us to be nothing but helpless
by-standers as she takes from us creatures that we treasure. But as I like to think that everything has
a meaning it helps me move on rather than get stuck in sadness and regrets.
Vinou and I, both hospitalized...
Then to add to the nightmare, short after I came back from my trip abroad Vinou started to
be sick. The last week-end of April, I woke up to find him quite weakened, it really depressed me and I was panicked as he's already suffering from a heart disease and is under daily medication... Vinou was taken to the vet hospital where
he stayed for a whole week.
I am pretty lucky to have super friends (especially Gertrude & JC, i.e. Céline &
JF) who were all quick to react when I fell apart after many (many, many...) events had pushed me to the the breaking point. Only a few days after she was back from NYC (her job
there was finished so she flew back to France!), Céline didn't hesitate to drive all the way from North of France to come and take care of my cats while I was myself hospitalized for another
reason... and she didn't come empty-handed: she arrived with a jar of Nutella (she knows me well!) and a new stuffed toy, MiniPingu (those who read regularly the blog must have noticed how much I
love my toys like a 4-year old >> click here).
Ribellu & MiniPingu
I take them with me everywhere I go now!
My brother and sister also packed their bags and flew from Paris & Nice to
come and cheer me up. And finally, last but not least, my parents came too, and we went hiking just to take my mind off things, and because I needed a breath of fresh
Thomas & Stéphanie
The best little brother & big sister ever! ♥
Miss you, love you Taupe 1 & Taupe 3 ;-)
Holidays and new plans
Well... to sum up: very recently many "small" events in my life made my level of stress become out of control. And
even though things have gently calmed down and have gotten back to normal by now, I've decided to take a break from breeding.
Until now my breeding plans had gotten along very nicely. I am quite proud of the babies I bred and believe I've
somehow added to the breeds during those past threee years. Besides it is obvious that I've always loved my cats for who they are (i.e. my cherished companions), just as much as I've loved to
"raise" them and be a breeder. This is what makes it difficult for me to decide to stop breeding for good and explains why I haven't yet settled on a strong
not sure if I can stop just like that and seemingly overnight but I feel I need to slow down at least, which mean that if I continue to breed I will have less litters: I really have to take some
time to focus on important matters in my personal life.
I started to rehome some of my cats. Some left as pets and some will contribute to the balinese breeding at other catteries. Follow the news here to know if I will have other litters later this
year, I'm not sure myself at the moment, I need to think!
All that happened recently made me
remember how much family & friends matters to me, and much more than anything else. I was saddened by many things recently but hopefully time eases all pains. Very soon I will travel again as
I really need some fresh air and to turn the page on many issues. I will take two weeks off very soon to go and visit my family, I'm so happy! First, I will go to
Nice (from June 8 to June 15) where my sister lives with her boyfriend JP (Zipé !), then I will go to Paris (June 16-22) to see
my brother (who is just back from Thailand, lucky him!) & my parents (... and the rest of my family). Céline and I plan to go somewhere to
relax (next August), we haven't yet decided where but we're thinking about it! ;-)
27,5 years sooner: with my parents and my sister, at my first birthday's party. As you can see,
Stéphanie has always loved food and cakes a lot! :-P
Daddy was 30 and Mummy 23: she younger than me, I am so jealous! When I was a little girl I wanted to do everything
like Mummy. Guess I'm late! I am impatient to start a family too and get a picture like this with me instead of Mum, but first I need to take care of important matters... Then I'll be ready to go
find the love of my life and be a mother. Not only a cat-mom... I want human babies!
Bố Mẹ ơi, con nhớ gia đình mình nhiều lắm... ♥
I thank all my friends and family for their support and love.
I thank all the people who adopted cats and kittens from me for their trust, and also for taking so great care of their companions!
I developed new friendships and deep bonds with some of them, especially those who adopted twice or more from
- Maggy and JJ are the first who adopted from me! They have Suki + 4 kittens I bred ;-) They often
write to me as they would do with their own daugther, and since I live far from my parents they've been like my second parents here in Geneva (gros bisous à vous Maggy et JJ, et au Club des Cinq
- Marie & Régis (they adopted Fasty, Hayleigh & Hadley) with their 3-year old daughter
Sarah and I are very regularly in touch...
- and last but not least, Lucie, with whom I'm going out to dinner tonight! To her and her kids'
greatest pleasure, she has adopted Pomme, Hellie, and will soon take Yoda & Kama too.
Of course I don't forget the other people who has some of my babies as pets: Claudine and her family (she has Hero from Gina's litter), Céline & Cédric (they
have Pote & Grace from Kiddy's second litter), Ingrid & Fred (they have Belle from Gina's litter), Marie (who has Yafa).
Finally I would like to thank the breeders I trusted with a breeding cat and/or whom I adopted from myself
- Angelika (cattery
of Noah's Ark, Germany -- the breeder of Kiddy),
- Mirjam (cattery of
Blue Moon, Switzerland -- Mirjam has Friday and Holly, from Kiddy's first and third litter), - Delphine (cattery "Melle Bloom", France -- she has Harry. Bravo pour
son BIS à Montargis ;-) )
- Robert & Christine (cattery "de la Baie d'Halong", France -- Robert, rappelle moi, t'as un
message sur ton répondeur !!) (they who have Sunny & Ivy),
- Fabienne (cattery "Og Island Snaegerdi -- she has Kaila from Gina's litter),
- Pippa (Pippastro Cattery, Wales -- she has Harvey from Fasty's second litter and I have Dragonfly
- Pia (Floyd from Kiddy's fourth litter),
- Natalie (cattery "Sous le Saule", Canada -- she has Hermès from Kiddy's fourth litter). I thank
you all again for
And of course meeting Céline (Coupine Gertrude !!) is the best thing that happened during my years
as a breeder. I first contacted her when I was looking for my first breeding queens and over the years we've become the best friends ;-)
Some recent pictures with my family and friends now who all did all that they could to cheer me up
The three of us
(yes I was saying sumthin' on when the guy took the picture, hence my weird "smile" :-) )
Sisters in Geneva (Bel Air Cité)
Fetching our brother at the train station
Chinese restaurant with my brother and sister
At the restaurant with Lucie
We had some fish and Lucie made me taste some wine!
Matt & Me, ain't we sweet?
After the restaurant with JF
Matt & JF are my bodyguards (they are 6'3" and 6'4" tall!)... my two big brothers ;-)
Céline & Me
T'aime Coupine ♥
... and Jean-François
Again during dinner when she came to viti!
Eating is a pleasure!
By the way, both Vinou and me have fully recovered :-)
Vinou, after he got back home
Me after I got back home, after a nap by the sunlight!